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18h49... estou com uma musica na cabeca...

"One of these mornings
Won't be very long
You will look for me
And I'll be gone"

Eh "One Of These Mornings" do Moby. A letra inteira eh assim... precisa mais???
posted by Rowan DeRaven at 18:54

 
11h11... There's a ghost in my bathroom! Achei que fosse bobagem da minha cabeca, mas nao eh, nao... eu tenho uma colecao de xampuzinhos de hotel numa prateleira do banheiro, de uns tempos pra cah, toda hora eu viro os nomes dos hoteis para frente e quando vou ver, estao todos virados para tras... pensei que talvez meu gato, Saluki, estivesse passeando por lah e virando os vidrinhos, mas ontem tive a prova que nao eh ele quem faz isso... eu fui a ultima pessoa a sair de casa de manha e a primeira a chegar a noite, o banheiro ficou fechado, o Luki nao entrou lah, e os benditos xampuzinhos que eu tinha arrumado de manha estavam virados...

Com tanta coisa interessante pra esses fantasmas fazerem pelo mundo, por que cargas d'agua ficam no meu banheiro virando vidrinhos de xampu?????!!!!! Soh comigo mesmo pra acontecer algo tao estupido assim...
posted by Rowan DeRaven at 11:17

 
17h03... eh pessoal, mas achei legal passar pra cah um e-mail que recebi da Audrey hoje...

Ale,

In my life I have gone through many bad things. When I look back I have learned that everything, every place, every person we come into contact with especially the negative, is for a reason. I have not understood at the time but later at some point in my life I have had the light bulb go off in my head and have understood the why. In some cases it has been many years later but the realization always comes. "Oh now I understand why I had to go through that" and the experience and maturity that comes with that realization is immeasurable.

You are at a difficult place because you have put all of your effort into work and now you feel disappointed because you may have neglected the other areas of your life. Understanding what is wrong is 90% of solving the problem and getting some relief.

32 years is not old at all. I have turned 37 with two kids, two ex-husbands, and no one believes how old I am. Age is relative. I feel 27 or even younger on some days. Lately I have been focusing on taking care of me physically. Working out, eating right, reading, doing positive things in my life.

I have not been partying or drinking or doing things that can eventually harm me. Of course there is a time and a place for everything and I am learning how to balance it all. I think in the end that is what true happiness is. Learning how to balance family, friends, work, relationships.

Ask yourself, what is the most important goal in my life? What do I live for at this moment in my life? (because it changes, don't be fooled). Ask yourself what are 5 fun things I can actually accomplish this coming year? As you strive to reach those goals you start to see your life change
automatically. I have spent too much time crying over who hurt me and all the bad things. I'm done with that now. Now I need to move forward and be happy, no matter what it takes.

Ale, think that for now you are where you are supposed to be and make the changes for yourself that will make those around you change. Think that the bar has been raised and that this has not been made easy so that you will overcome all of the challenges with grace! Above all I know you know this but trust in God. If he brought you there he will see you through.

You are a great friend that has brought me joy and peace without even knowing it. Thank you for being there in my times of need. You are one of the pleasant surprises that God keeps stored away for us to enjoy just at the right moment. Please never change! If you cannot come to Miami I will come to Brazil! Maybe soon, who knows?

Take care Ale, un beso y un abrazo!
Audrey

posted by Rowan DeRaven at 17:06

 
01h40... daqui a pouco eh segunda-feira, o dia maldito!

Sabado: pre-estreia, filme bobo, gente insuportavel... dormir, dormir, dormir... a noite, cafe com leite condensado no Fran's da Soo, e um MARAVILHOSO "fada verde" de absinto no Senzala...

Domingo: dormir, dormir, dormir... cafe da manha... dormir... almoco... dormir... pizza de banana (com creme de leite?!)... "Steven Spielberg's Taken"... insonia... tenho tido sonhos estranhos, com lugares estranhos, pessoas estranhas, mas sonhos que parecem querer revelar alguma coisa, importante e verdadeira, pena que nao esteja num bom momento, com a mente aberta, para poder entender... pena... acho que vou, acho nao, eu vou, tomar um absinto para dormir melhor... eh, eu vou sim...

1h46... shit de fim de semana nublado! :-(
posted by Rowan DeRaven at 01:26